Happiness & Sanity Are Full Time Jobs

There are so many people that are better before they are truly known.  I once hear that "One should never have a hero younger than themselves or they will be disappointed in who they find them to be".  We also must see that all people are human and are prone to mistakes and error.

Others are simply not ready for the public.  Their lives have caused them to be too scared of everything; they are unable to see life as happy and free.  When someone real does come into their lives they feel compelled to pick the relationship apart and see all the reasons they will not be able to find happiness in it.  Many times they push away the best option for an option they feel they fit better into instead of the avenue that would be of the best benefit for them.  Some of us may not be able to see why these choices are made; but most of us have not seen the major set backs and personal pains that these people have.  Their lives have been filled with too much misery for them to know true happiness.  They have created a shell around themselves to only accept what they feel safe and comfortable accepting.  The shell only allows so much happiness before it rejects the conduit brining the pleasurable experience and sometimes we will see them reject those who intend the most good.

No amount of regular experience seems to change this thought form and process.  It will usually take many years of therapy and counseling to unlock the ability of these people to find their true ability to find happiness.  Sadly, much of their life has already passed and the bills from the therapy have caused them to have too little materially for them to actively search for their new found ably to be completely happy.  Plus, they have often already rejected several who wanted to make them happy and had the ability to do so.  They also will not return because those people did take the initiative to seek new happiness and good experiences.

Cyclical Happenings

       Do not get pulled into reoccuring dates and feelings.  If what has been sent to you was horrid, be sure to not perpetuate the happening by adding any of your energy to it.  Once you have banished it, be rid of it.  Let the forces you have put into play remove the evil and add no energy to assist in any form of reoccurrence.
        If you keep remembering dates, holding service to them, or romantisizing them in any way, you will simply bring back that time, mistrust, betrayal, pain, torment, and torture.
         I find some psychologies and some astrological signs struggle with forgetting the most.  Those who easily let things go, and have no afterthoughts, will have the easiest times utilizing this advice and this magick.  Not getting pulled back-in is the best line you can use for ridding yourself of a past fret from torment of others.

     Live at peace and love those who love you.

Don't waste time on those who hate you, abuse you, use you, or don't care about you.

A Question of Balance

Do we all need to see the same things every day?

Are these the days we need to look for something new and different?

Are these the times of a resurrection of man? Or is it for my soul only?

These are questions I asked myself today.

I took the time to get out and just be anywhere but work yesterday.  I really love my job, but some days really grate on me worse than other days.  This last week has been that kind of week for me.

I know I strongly desire to return to school and to finish up some education loopholes.  For nothing else, I want to accomplish these things for me.  I will feel that a high IQ and a vast knowledge of too much will not go wasted if I finish up a high degree than what I already hold.


I love knowing that I held a 3.5 in college all while holding 2 jobs, being newly married, and having a band.  Now I want to put the cap stone on it.


My soul needs a challenge that customer interaction starts to take away from.  I want to break away and let my star shine.

My family needs for my star to shine.

The Leech

       There are those that will do everything in their power to drain you of all that you are.  They will take your magical energies, your happiness, your life force, and your money.

DO NOT LET THEM HAVE WHAT YOU HAVE WORKED SO HARD FOR!!

        I would love to tell you that these people are always easy to detect; but that is not always the case.  Many are very good at what they do.  They have trained themselves in the arts of deception and betrayal because it is their way of surviving.  They are no different than the blood sucking creatures that spread diseases and annoyances in nature.  But these are people, and they desire to drain you.
      A few signs are usually present.  But these are never full proof:

1. Their obsession with their constant attempt  to try  to win your favor so they can use your attention and  trust against you at a latter time.  Schopenhauer may have been correct when he said, " Don't tell your best friend what you would not tell to your worst enemy" in dealing with these loosers.  Job sites are the worst for this, especially if you have any level of authority or you're more pronounced in your craft than they.

2. You can feel what they want.  You can usually place a field around yourself, or them, so that you can keep yourself protected from these leeches.  It isn't foolproof.  It is like a condom, it is much better than going without protection, but you're still 20% at risk.  Think of it as a dust mask from when fly risks were at all time highs.

3.  These are rarely the kind with enough guts to confront you face to face, or directly confront you in anyway.  They think it makes them better people, when you ask them.  But really, they are just too scared of you, and who you are, to face you.  Body size has nothing to do with this psychology.  You'll actually find large people are the most scared of a full frontal charge against you.  Some of them will be so extreme that they will covertly use the legal system to crush you for being who you are, and being (or having) what they desire... This can be the hardest to know about till it is too late for you to do much but ride out the storm they have created.