That book changed my life. I saw the world though very different eyes where my actions meant something. Whatever I did did something in the world. Even if this world was only my world, my world was the one I'd always been in and allowed everyone else to influence it more than the actions I made. It was time to take control.
I took to rituals pretty naturally. My first rituals and spells were right out of The Satanic Bible itself, and did I ever see results. Everything I asked for came to pass. Even a very mild winter where I did not have to turn on the heat took place. I had money, happiness, and pleasures for the first time in my life. The works of Anton LeVay had their stamp and direction in my life. The only issue is that I did not heed the warning that LeVay wrote in The Satanic Rituals that black magic is like writing a check. Yes, you get just what you went to get, but you have to have to funds to cover that check. If not, you find yourself in a worse position that before the check was written. I had asked for too much, on too many occasions, not to have to pay back what I had gone to to receive. Serious issues took place and Vehkuur took to me. He was assigned to get the payments back. And he did.
From there I did some more Satanic Magic, but I found it not to work as well any more. I had been doing some reading into Konstantinos, and started to use his rituals and spells. They worked well, but as time went on I could still feel Vehkuur around me. He still affected me and controlled too great an area of my life. I needed to get rid of him and nothing I had used up till then worked.
One night I opened up a book of Aleister Crowley's magick rituals. I turned directly to The Star Ruby Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram. After I read through it a few times I preformed the ritual and found a cleansing experience I had never experienced before. Eventually I made it a nightly practice and started to become clean of the demonic powers that were around me.
I read more and more of Aleister Crowley's works and incorporated those rituals into my daily practices that extend into the practices I still take part in nightly. Now I am on to learn all that I can in Crowley's writings so that I may learn more and more to reach the level of Adeptus Exemptus and then onto Ipissimus.
I then hope to move to the works of Peter Carrol. I hope that after I reach this stage I will be ready to once again lead a following like I did during the days of my Satanic Magics.
I feel as though I have grown in my practices. Satanic Magic had its place in my upbringing. But I saw that I needed to do more that was not just self serving. I had needed to be selfish for a while, but then, after taking control of myself; I needed to once again move in another direction. I am on that path now and look forward to see what it brings to me in the future. My past is set like that of the pyramid. Now is the time to continue to build each and every layer up to the final stone.
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